May 7, 2008...6:23 am
No time to hibernate
[beware: some serious venting is about to go down]
I am so frustrated right now. I don’t feel like anyone is listening to me. I always feel like I have to do everything that everyone wants to do. I feel like I don’t have any time for myself lately(okay, I took 2 hours off from life on Monday and knitted.. so sue me). I think that’s a huge reason why I’m a frustrated, angry (a little), ball of stress today.
One thing that is bugging me, is that I often do things that I don’t want to do. I want to do things I want to do, and spend my mom where I want to spend it. I don’t want to feel guilty if I don’t call.. or go for coffee.. or have over for dinner.. or whatever. Hey! I am so busy lately (really I am).. that I don’t even have a moment for myself. I do want to hang out with these people, but I don’t want to feel bad because these days, it’s just insane.. and this week at work isn’t less busy either. Now work and home are insane.
Renovations! Still not done, but almost. We are sooo close to being done, I can taste it. The only thing that is stressing me out about this, is that we have to be done moving my stuff back into my apartment by early Friday evening. My parents are coming to town and understandably, they want their apartment to be back in order. We are moving as quickly as we can. Life keeps getting in the way.
This event that I am organzing, should be a bigger priority, but I have no time. There is only so much time in a day to organze all this. I keep losing all my time to do other things. I want this to be the best party ever that I organze, but I need time and support. I don’t drive (I want to, but there is no time to learn these days), so I need help getting to some of these places. I’m afraid to ask for help because I’ll get ‘we have no time to go’ or ‘ you need your drivers license’… I know this already! But I have just a little over a month to do it.. 
This sucks. I just want to hibernate.. isn’t that what the winter is for? Now it’s Spring and I’ve missed my chance. F*&%! Actually, I feel so wound up today, my back is killing me.. it happens when I’m stressed out. - Signed.. Put me to bed.
4 Comments
May 7, 2008 at 8:03 am
don’t worry it will all work out in the end.. i know what it feels like not to have anytime but you need to find ten whole minutes to sit down and write out the things you need to in PRIORITY.. it helps a lot then just tick then off as you go and if people are trying to make up your mind for you… stand up for yourself.. there is NO reason why you can’t be listened too.. don’t let someone(s) push you around!
May 7, 2008 at 8:57 pm
Hi…I want to share my view working from home Many people have great side businesses that they would like to take into their home full-time, but their work ethic enough to believe that they’d be successful working all alone.
May 8, 2008 at 1:55 am
oh dear, i’m getting stressed out just reading this…. i hope things get better!
May 26, 2008 at 5:44 pm
Stressful things like that tend to pile up all at once in a person’s life, but you’ve got to take time for yourself. You can’t spend your entire day doing things for other people, meeting obligations, etc. It’s your time, all 24 hours, and you should use some of it for yourself, to keep you sane if nothing else.
I hope things work out for you, but you’ve kinda got to make them work out and not worry so much. People worry when they are stressed and they become stressed why they worry. It feeds on itself.
Have a great day!
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